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A New Beginning, a new series.....
As we enter 2010, I feel now, after 40 blogs in the second series, The Alchemy Series,, it is time to begin anew, so to speak.
So series three I have chosen to call The True Being series in line with our moving more into expressing and experiencing ourSelves as the truth of who we each are.
Enjoy
Love Elizabethxx
The True Being Series # 8 12 March 2010
THE JOY OF HOMECOMING
As I flew out of London yesterday morning on the last leg of my journey home from my holiday in the sun, the sky was overcast and dark grey and the temperatures were very chilly to say the least.
On board the plane to Isle of Man, a relatively short 1 hour flight, leaving behind this dull picture, the captain announced that Manxland was bathed in a clear, cloudless day of brilliant sunshine with sparkling seas and a fairly "mild" temperature of 10C and my heart jumped for joy for I could picture its beauty before my eyes.
The heat of the Canaries while wonderful to experience again, after years away from such temperatures, had reinforced to me that I thrive far better these days in the cooler climes.
As I flew closer to home the picture the pilot had painted was so easy to envision and I allowed myself to savour its grandeur and wonder fully.
As we flew in over the Calf of Man I looked north-east and embraced the spine of hills running the length of the Isle, and saw snowcapped Snaefell in the distance.
The whole Isle was visible and I felt a surge of excitement that this Isle is "home" - reflecting the home within of course....
As we flew lower over Port St Mary I saw almost directly below, my abode on the bay shore shining in the sun by the sea awaiting my return.
Bay ny Carrickey which I have viewed from my window for the past 18 months was a bright blue calmness, the sun providing rainbow sparkles as far as my eyes could sea.
My very simple lifestyle, my creation over a long period, has me in a space of "holiday in the sun" (and may other weather variations too of course!!) every day, realised even more so now.
I've travelled the world extensively over the years and see that for me the real travel now continues to be of the inner variety.
Closer to landing, I just knew that my outer home reality reflected my inner space in all joyous grandeur.
The cool crispness, the scenic beauty, the wondrous contrasts, the All There Is in the Oneness of this majestic place within the grandness of the expansiveness of the bigger picture.
Yet the bigger picture too is fully reflected here. The reality of home within home where choices play the part of where one wishes to experience life.
Touch Down... and I feel Home's wonder reflected in this magical place.
My Heart Within. My Heart Without. The One and the Same.
While I am deeply grateful for my recent warm sunny experience in the Canaries, I am especially grateful for the ongoing cooler sunny experience of home here on the Isle of Man, where my heart feels restfulness and quiet and is my place and space to Just Be.
Photographer Jon Wornham www.island-images.co.uk
Shared in quiet restfulness and a gratitude of homecoming.
Love Elizabethxxx
{Anyone interested in viewing the IOM from the air, take a tour via this link:
http://www.island-images.co.uk/Aerial3/zAerial.html
Click on "Start the Tour"}
The True Being Series # 7 5 March 2010
FUN-SHINING IN THE SUN
{Note... this was written while on holiday in Fuerteventura, Canary Isles}
Goodness, it is no wonder I left Queensland (Australia) back in 2003. I had forgotten how the sun had me function physically at almost zero pace!!
In moving to the Isle of Man, a much colder climate, I am warm from within for therein the sun shines.
This week on Fuerteventura (Canary Islands) has seen me be reminded of that outer heat once again.... phew.
Fun-shining here has become like in Queensland more and more as the week has progressed... zero pace, almost... snail's pace, yes.
At such pace, where is the fun?
For me at least, it is not about physical movement, but more about stillness and quiet restfulness. And this is exactly where I have found myself, and loving it immensely.
Here on Fuerteventura the pace of life is very slow, reflecting my inner space perfectly, the ideal spot to experience just Being.
No rushing around for this humble lass. And in a quiet space of inner contentment I am letting it be so for my body cannot take the sunbaking it once did, but more it thrives on the shade and cool breezes, rest and still eases.
Those that I have travelled here with are the opposite in that they love the sun and are more active and joyful in its warmth. Thus they are fun-shining the opposite way to me.
All being true to Self, we have all honoured this and gone off and done that with reflects the truth for each of us. A beautiful universal creation each being happy in one's own way and joyfully being in the process.
Fun-shining is sun-shining in a way that reflects one's heart.
As I write, a gentle breeze blows as a butterfly flies by, a pair of doves caress each other on the wall in the distance and a quiet stillness prevails.
Shared in my quiet space of stillness and restfulness
Love Elizabethxx
The True Being Series # 6 16 February 2010 AN OCEAN OF SILENCE I continue to observe the ocean of my life's dream, that which I live moment by moment. A stillness pervades this ocean of consciousness, where Being in this Temple of Silence is a fluidity, a melding, an invitation, an embracement. A gentle wave rolls ashore to a beach of soft sands and pebbles, each grain and pebble unique in its signature yet blended as one to receive the glory of the anointing. Yet One swims away from the shoreline into the depths to surround Self more fully with the feeling of IAM in One's midst. Surrendering deeper still One finds the ocean floor of silent memory, a magnificence of sovereign Being the gentle Soul within ItSelf. This watery garden of elegant beauty feeling ItSelf in this space. So still is this Sacred Temple of Silence. In the depths of mystery and holiness is this sacred watery garden of the gods. In gentleness and silent stillness Is The One IAM Shared with Love and Joy, Elizabeth xx
The True Being Series # 5 14 February 2010
AFLOAT UPON THE OCEAN CURRENTS
The sea outside my window continues to inspire me. I watch its movements, its in and out breath, and notice the slight ripples on the surface are moving away from the shore this morning, inviting me to ride atop them in full trust.
The sea has been amazingly calm for the past couple of weeks and the days this past week so still, gloriously sunny with brilliant blue skies, all so very unusual for this time of the year when more often than not it is more usual for wild storms to be raging and the waves to be washing my windowpane!
Photo from: http://sojournerky.files.wordpress.com/2009/09/dsc06397.jpg
Recently messages have been coming to me to "leave the shore" (and "The Shore" just happens to be the name of the hotel I live in permanently right on the shoreline) and not to return to "the coast" (which just happens to be the name of a bistro I regularly have lunch in, in town!) and of course my initial take on this was that a physical move is/was being mooted, away from the shoreline/coastal area to living more inland, which of course I have no problem with either...
However I am now realising that this is a higher calling to fully let go of the tethering to the "solid land" and instead become afloat, in full trust, on the currents of the ocean of life, allowing myself to be moved along, rather than in control of the outcome, knowing that all is being taken care of, that I am fully supported, that all undercurrents are being smoothed and soothed, (based on the past few days, this is VERY TRUE!) and BE like a magnificent swan, floating in all sovereignty and majesty into eternity.
"Serenity" Ralph Courtie, Isle of Man
I must admit this is rather scary, yet too, I know that contentment, serenity, silent grace and quiet ease are the offering being tended, so how can one refuse to accept!
Control and surrendering of it, seems to be a theme in many writings presently.
On another network I have been observing a mighty struggle around control at a particular forum I used to partake in, but no longer do so as these energies I choose now not to be part of....
I am seeing in this observance of how little use control in any form now is, but rather a total release, total surrender is the way to BE.
Yes I was aware of this of course, but with more and more clarity, one comes to realise the impact of total surrender upon oneSelf, one's life, one's Being.
It is a gradual process for most of us of course. No hurry, no rush. In the infinite moment, eternity is offering ItSelf.
I feel the quiet serenity of Being offering ItSelf, a soulful experience, a graceful movement of silvery moonlight sliding across indigo waters.
Photo from: http://www.monchalee.com/
Afloat the waters of eternity, Life wishes to live ItSelf in me and through me and having Its Beingness in so doing, the ocean currents to guide me safely and securely to where IAM to BE.
Love Elizabethxx
The True Being Series # 4 15th January 2010
RELEASING THE MOTHER PRINCIPLE (repost) ~ PLUS AN ADDENDUM I am led to repost this blog at this time (originally written in April 2009) plus add an addendum....a profound personal realisation which just came to me, yet has been hovering around me for the past couple of days...and while the addition is personal, I feel it is a reflection of much more at a higher level embracing and occurring with everyONE of US at this auspicious time. This is a very symbolic time for me personally in all this. And yet too, it is the energies of the mass consciousness also, so too other souls are moving through this as I do. I wrote the following for another blog a while back:
Love Elizabethx
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RELEASING THE MOTHER PRINCIPLE
{Originally written April 2009}
We are in process of undefining ourSelves for in the essence of unlimited freedom, being defined is a limitation. Thus releasing old energies of all aspects of identity is one of the most challenging and perhaps one of the most important to consider is the mother principle.
All of material life is birthed through this, the mother principle. We have lived in the parent/child construct for eons and yet in this construct we must realise too that every father has a mother! Too we grace the title of mother on the earth and we have parented deity as Father/Mother God and much, much more. And of course such defines gender when in reality energies, source etc are genderless, thus another defining concept.
In the new paradigm we are charged with being responsible for all aspects of our own lives. No more needing to be parented or seen parenting others.
So letting the mother principle go is ever so important at all levels otherwise we will never become our grownup selves as we are being required to do as we move more into Self mastery.
In allowing this process consciously over the past year or so (still much to be released for this is a big one), I am finding lots of stuff happening at my navel! This is the invisible link (residue with the past physical link, that is) we each have with "mother" which maintains the connection etherically.
I see the navel as an unhealed wound exemplified by a scar left behind by the cutting of the umbilical chord. Till the wound is healed and the scar dissipates (disappears) we will still have the old energies here which connect us to the past, and through this maintain a separate identity.
This is a biggie as it effects us all. The navel scar has become an accepted part of the human anatomy rather than seen for what it truly is. It goes right back to the foundation of life for it is through this old foundation, based on fear and pain, we are each birthed. Therefore we inherit these energies which become generational, so we can now see the need to strip back to the core of releasing ALL aspects of mothering - being mothered by others and needing to mother others - and in so doing, we release the father principle also. I am not talking about virtues attributed to parenting of course. Releasing the mother principle does not deny these beautiful qualities for they are a natural part of us all regardless.
A need for suckling of breasts/being suckled during sexual encounters is a sign of mothering needs. One partner told me years back that he wished he could re-enter the safety and security of the womb experience! A fear of growing up perhaps? As long as we NEED, we are maintaining the concept that we are incomplete.
In the essence of Self Mastery, we are being charged with full responsibility for All aspects of our lives with full Self-accountability right back to our true foundation of origin as One Love Being. We are growing up at last, so no more is "mother"/"parent" required, and letting go of all the old energetics around this concept and construct goes all the way, I feel, to releasing all around identity.
When the navel scar disappears from one's physical body, so too will the idea of a separate identity disappear also. Then will we realise the Oneness and our completeness, wholeness and perfection as created.
Enjoy the process!
Love Elizabeth
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ADDENDUM (written 15 January 2010)
I have been personally surrendering the Mother Principle for the past year or so, a gradual process working at my own comfortable pace, for it is VERY DEEP CORE ISSUE STUFF!
Since the Blue Full Moon partial lunar eclipse of December 31st 2009, I have been profoundly aware, almost in my face so to speak, that it was crescendo time for this stuff. Far more than my own mother of this life time with whom I had a very challenging relationship (she transitioned in 1994) and the mothering of my children of this lifetime, but the key to the whole lot, being the full surrendering of " The Mother". The full death of "The Mother" that is, in order that the (re)birthing of The Self
be free to occur within a cleared gene pool.
Yesterday, 14 January, was the 38th birthday of my eldest son in this lifetime. The number of years are not important, nor is the fact that with his birth all those years ago, I became a mother for the first time in this lifetime. What IS important is that his birth was a profound experience.....
I remember when I gave birth to my eldest son in 1972, I had the experience that the placenta did not come away and had to be transferred from the country hospital where the birth took place to the central one in the nearest city. After the removal of the placenta, they kept me there a couple of days observation and within 24 hours I went into toxic shock and the Drs realised that they had not removed all the placenta etc and it was poisoning me.. during the emergency op which took place, I remember the experience of giving birth to myself through my own birth canal...a truly amazing experience which spoke to me even back then, 38 years ago, that to be me, I needed to turn inside out... talk about a graphic experience... and one which I have never forgotten..
It is the caterpillar into the butterfly.. the metamorphosis.. the turning inside out...
Next week, January 20th, is the "anniversary" of the death of my this lifetime mother.
In between is the Capricorn New Moon with Solar Eclipse today, and too Mercury goes direct again today as well, after having kept us all in a holding pattern for the past 3 weeks while we did the "review" which usually occurs during such a space
So in these 6 days (14 -20 January) I feel the final dying to "The Mother" occurring for me personally (which of course will continue to energetically play out into the physical over the weeks ahead) and for many others also perhaps, too.
I am now fully birthing /birthed asThe SELF IAM as LOVE with SELFLOVE the only parent NOW....becoming trans-parent, ap-parently!!
Numerologically, 20 January is 20/01/2010 or more easily to note as 20 01 2010 and which can be also seen as 3:3 or 33 which is the christ number
We are in auspicious times as we have been reading in the many blogs posted here and elsewhere on this wondrous Solar Eclipse and New Moon energies.
It is a stargate opening of profound magnitude and it behooves each of us to embrace it with the highest awareness we can so do.
The experience I had on the birth of my eldest son all those years ago, of giving birth to mySelf through my own birth canal is now coming to fruition,.
The mothering/parenting concept at ALL levels is, for me, no longer.
IT'S BUTTERFLY TIME......in love, joy, freedom and truth, WEARE THE ONE IAM,
I am deeply humbled and I give thanks from the depths of my Being for this wondrous journey.
Love and gratitude
Elizabethxx
The True Being Series # 3 9 January 2010
I GIVE UP
I give up!! I give MySelf up! I am losing MySelf in order to find MySelf!
Lauren Gorgo's message of her first week of 2010 almost replicates mine and it seems many others too. I wrote the following in an email to a dear friend yesterday:
"Funnily enough I don't see any of it as a limitation in the slightest, in fact I see it as total freedom coming to BE, Now. Really I do. I have always felt (in the overall scheme of things that is) that this whole process is all about freedom, nothing less, and we have always been free in truth, just not aware of it....
And this morning while contemplating it all as One, I realised it is about embracing it ALL into the One IAM for it is All NOW, through transforming the body by "dying" to live, literally. and I really experienced that "dying" bit earlier in the week...it was like going to hell and back...one has to move through all the feeling stuff in order for the transformation to occur......step by step by step....this is the ascension of all matter in my way of understanding, hence my understanding it as a freedom, not a limitation.
Jesus said we must be born again and in order for that to occur one dies to the old to be born again anew...new wine can only be stored in new wine skins.(this latter referring to the embodiment of the soul as Veronica/Eloheim talk about).and one must lose oneself in order to find oneself....and so on...been contemplating Self and No Self today in line with that last statement...lose oneself in order to find oneself...like giving oneself up when you are "guilty" of a "crime", living the "fraudulent life of separation" so to speak..that is what all this "guilt, shame and blame is" ...so today I am giving mySelf up totally, completely....in so doing, I am letting mySelf go, ...this tightness in the heart area it has come to me is attachment to mySelf and my holding onto mySelf...(old self) ... and in letting mySelf go, I trust I will find mySelf again, obviously in a new way.....will be interesting to see where this leads....so I surrender wholly and completely ..I give up, I surrender!!
You will see of course much play on words in the above...."
Since I wrote that I see that what I am giving up is the "prison sentence" I have given mySelf who now wishes to be born free in full demonstration. The inner butterfly, cocooned for so long now wishes to fly at last.
So another analogy which came to me is that we are getting too expanded for this bodysuit-cocoon "prison" which we have "worn" as a womb for so long and now it is time to give birth to the freedom-loving gentle butterfly we are and the body is morphing to accommodate this. No more the caterpillar crawling along the ground, but instead, light and free and gentle as a snowflake, flying from here to there is lightness of joy and love.
{Artwork by Catherine.. thank you dear sisterxx}
Like the clouds "hanging" in the sky, totally self supporting and each enough unto themselves, they float upon the currents of Life, breezing along in JOY, morphing and shapeshifting, dematerialising and rematerialising whereever and however and whenever and whatever they wish to BE. Their grace and ease is apparent, very transparent in fact. So clear it is see-through! Yet together as One, there is a kaleidescope of majestic and dynamic depth and colour, sensation and magnificence. Self sovereign each, and too Sovereign as One.
The merging and emerging is continuous, like the inhale and exhale of the breath.
In giving themselves up, they become THEMSELVES - uniquely individual, perfectly and freely forming continually, harmonising with All as One as All.
I give up. I am giving MySelf up. I am losing MySelf in order to find MYSELF.
Shared in love of freedom, in joy of truth,
With grace and ease IAM BE(COM)ING
Elizabethxxx
The True Being Series # 2 3 January 2010
GAZING IS AMAZING
My window looks out over the sea and the sky as many of you know and over the past 18 months or so I have been blessed with this wondrous expansive view in all its myriads of changes and moods. Magical and magnificent...
My window is divided in two and the lower half is sea view, the upper sky view, the horizon being hidden by the window bar.
Over the past few days I have found mySelf gazing with even more awareness than usual alternatively at the sea then the sky but with more intensity at the sky for some reason for it has a "feeling" about it, a specialness, a glorious light.
The sea has been so calm recently, millpond-like, and the gulls and ducks (from the nearby river) have all been just floating atop the gentle slightly rolling swells fully supported.
The skies have been a sea of clouds (forgive the pun!) of all varieties... wispy, voluminous white and some dark grey and rain-filled, others filled with snow waiting to fall, and blue patches between them all through which the sun shines and radiates its golden glory upon them all....
I have been contemplating these clouds for hours watching their changing faces then gazing at their reflections in the sea while at the same time observing the ducks and gulls just continuing to float their days away.
On looking back at the clouds, I notice them all just hanging there if you will, floating totally unsupported except unto themselves.
Then I gaze back down at the ducks and gulls floating too, except they are supported by the sea.
So what is it about the clouds which has them able to float "up there" with no support it seems. I gaze and contemplate this some more.
Clouds are continually morphing, shape-shifting, dematerialising and re-materialising, in a total new format constantly. I think... oh to be a cloud.
Then I remember Casey's video on her recent experience of levitation and simulation of teleportation and wonder......
Levitation is really floating, detached from all and just being in a state of suspended animation. In full and gentle surrender to and trust in OneSelf one releases all One's support-bases and becomes Self-supporting, totally free of any outside requirement. Self-reliant, Self-dependent, Self-trusting, Self governing. Beyond all those traits, is full and unconditional Self-Acceptance and Self Love.
Like the clouds, in full release and hanging loose, One is fully free to BE as and how one wishes....beyond that, One is free to come and go as one pleases beyond earthly support bases.
Oh, the wondrous blessings of being free to instantly shape-shift like a cloud and be like Jonathan Livingston Seagull, who, upon full Self-realisation of his perfection and unlimitedness, found himSelf in another place, with two green suns and in a strange environment!
I laugh when I think of just the earthly convenience One would have to wake up at sunrise and say I am off for a day in the sun in the Caribbean and BE there, instantly. No money required for plane tickets, no hassling around through airports and long flight journeys, no passports, no custom or immigration duties.... to think that one could just go to Bermuda or the Mediterrean or Australia or Hawaii, say for the day, sun on the beach and then return home again. Now THAT is freedom.
And of course just the beginning of infinite potential.....and having marvellous fun along the way practicing coming and going at will and thumbing the on-ground authorities who no longer have control over One's life!! There's the stars and the planets to explore, other universes and so on.... different realities and dimensions within realities and creating one's own reality to order....what potential, WOW.
Gazing is amazing The heart rises in the moment to explore the new. I think I will just continue gazing at the clouds awhile longer and see what else they offer me, while at the same time unconditionally accept Self-realisation Is Now.
In amazement
Elizabeth xx
The True Being Series # 1 31 December 2009
CLEARING THE GENE POOL
Messages have been coming through from many sources of recent times about beginning again with a blank slate which I see as the return to the purity of original creation, this time in the full conscious expression and experience of our true sovereign state as Creator Beings.
On a blank slate nothing is there. It is pure and clean. And it is from the space of purity and cleanliness we as Creator Beings are/will be creating anew.
Clarity is the word of the moment. Change this to transparent. We Be(come) "see through" so to speak, in full naked exposure!.
Ascension inbody involves us raising our vibrations to the point where the creator and creation are One in the moment.
We are at a point/coming to a point now of creating from this space, tentatively yet, in small daily ways as we "practice".
Of course we are still babes in arms so to speak in all of this and much is trial and error or rather, more correctly said, practice making perfect with readjustments of our creation/s being made along the way in the inner realms.....
My passion being my Self in full realisation, this is my creation work in progress so it is mySelf I am practising on rather than "out there" manifestations. My quiet alone lifestyle is such that "out there" in 3D has little impact upon me.
The past couple of days what has been coming through to me loud and clear is the words to "clear the gene pool, clear the gene pool" in repetitive tone from within me and I have been pondering its significence.
As a pure clean slate there is nothing there. One has NOTHING of influence from past, or future lives. These are wiped clean so to speak.
This sees One experiencing full transparency....being trans-parent, ap-parently, thus no "parental" (ancestral) influence. Gone are all concepts of mother/father/parent/child/gender and such which are linear structures of the old duality.
In the illusory world of the past where we have done the birth/death recycling programme, we have accumulated in our body's cellular memories, gene pool lineages of such that all are influencing us still, thus not giving us each the benefit of the purity of soul essence embodied as ONESELF in our own authentic and sovereign expression and experience.
I feel that for the essential divine nature to manifest physically as OneSelf as pure consciousness/soul embodiment, it is necessary to clear from one's body temple all generational influences of all past lineages...no matter who/what they may be....
Some speak of carrying the Michael energies, others Metatron, and still others the Ish continuum and that of the Marys....and of course there are many other such lineages.....we ALL carry an ancestral lineage of energies which are/have been accumulative. Such is a lineal structure of old energies, now no longer applicable.
I feel that till all these lineages are cleared through the clearing of the energetic/ancestral gene pool one is carrying, one is not creating, consciously or otherwise, from the pure clean slate of Original Creation. Till then influences from all these other lineal sources will impinge upon us being our fullest and grandest majestic PURE SELF in expression and experience.
All lineages claimed and currently lived from are/will be no longer relevant for that is still an attachment to the past, is it not? Thus linear expression and not in the eternal infinite now of full conscious (vertical) expression and experience of ONESELF as an Original Self Sourced/Sourcing Creator being.
To BE the demonstrating expression and experience of the Original Whole in One, beginning once again in full conscious awareness of OneSelf as a clean and pure slate, as a SelfSourced/Sourcing Being, then clearing of the gene pool of all past ancestral/energetic lineages will do just this, allowing One fully to Be in the Present and Eternal Now in Love, Joy, Freedom and Truth.
How is the gene pool clearing done? Let go, let go, let go, let go, ad infinitum.....as Bashar in particular has been saying.
The genuine article of expression and experience as the Pure OneSelf authentically sovereign, will then Be an IBE (In Body Experience) not an OBE!.
Shared in Pure Truth of Being,
Love Elizabethxx
